Enlightenment

Over the years I have done many stupid things. Some could say that I did this in order to grow as a person, but the more that I think about things, the more I feel that they hindered my growth instead of promoting it. I came to an epiphany this weekend after partaking in an enlightenment session. At first things progressed to a level where I experienced extreme bliss and heightened sensations, but as I went further, I found that this euphoric feeling went beyond my control and I felt rather helpless to the world that was moving around me.

This experience has helped me to realize that while it is ok for people to partake in these acivities, it is simply not for me anymore. I always thought that I could handle the experiences, but I see now that I am a better person if I choose to refrain from them.

I guess, in a way, I'm growing up, but in another way I'm choosing a path that will enable me to be in control of my life and my surroundings. I think I've felt helplessness for too long, and the only way for me to truly find some semblance of happiness in my own personal spirit, I need to grasp the reins and guide myself accordingly. I never thought that I would get to this point, but I can say honestly that I am happy to be making this decision.